Sunny Sunday

"Faith is a bird that feels dawn breaking and sings while it is still dark." Rabindranath Tagore

Yes it has been a while since I posted here. We are getting the infection under control but still can't get a handle on the pain. I have an ultrasound on Wednesday and hopefully they can see if what we are dealing with is stones in the bladder or kidneys. I have been essentially popping the pain pills every four hours, working, coming home and crashing since the pain is better if I lie down.

Friday of course I stayed up and watched television. Part one of Doctor Who was really good however there are times when you want to smack this particular Doctor up the side of the head and try to talk some sense into him. I mean come on you tried the reasoning and good will with the Daleks and it didn't work do you really think it would work with the Master? I do have a tendency to wonder if in this incarnation of the Doctor if they are keeping in mind that the actor who plays him is a Minister's son. The Doctor has never been so reasonable with the enemies before.

Stargate Atlantis also premiered its new season Friday night. Of course I had to find something else to watch in between Doctor Who and Stargate Atlantis as I can't stand the new Flash Gordon. Talk about boring! Can't stand the show. Stargate was good although the decision to keep Weir alive with Replicator technology is going to backfire big time.

Checking my email I received one from my baby brother the other day. I am not surprised that a conservative Christian NASCAR blogger is finding acceptance from one of the Web's most liberal blogger. One problem that his hippy dippy sister (me) has always had with the Conservatives out there is the mean spiritedness that they exhibit towards so many people. If you aren't a Conservative then you are a spawn of the devil the way they talk. Rather then having a dialog where the exchange of views is encouraged people like Anne Coulter throw viscous insults around. When I was in high school I was a part of our school's debate team. We had to be able to debate both sides of that year's topic. It taught me that there are two sides to an issue and that you should attempt to learn all you can from both sides before you take a stand. Get the facts and then go with your heart in the way you feel is best.

My February picture for my new calendar is going to be Lover's Sky.

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Power of Prayer

I met with the doctor today and got good news. According to her I don't need the hysterectomy and that the fibroid tumors are not that bad. The problem is a massive bladder infection that is causing all the pain. We are trying some new antibiotics.

I know that many people have kept me in their prayers and those prayers have been answered and for the readers of this blog who have kept me in their prayers I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know some people who refuse to believe in God or prayer but today has proven to me again that He exists and that He is looking out after me. To say I am relieved is an understatement. I still need to see the surgeon about the hiatal hernia but even if he wants to operate it won't be as difficult of an operation.

Over the weekend I designed my Christmas card for this year. I realized I wasn’t going to be able to finish  the calendar without the Christmas picture because that is always the December picture. I am really pleased with it but you will have to wait until the Christmas post to see it. ;-)

This year I am using some of my pictures that were specifically designed for certain holidays. The January picture is going to be appropriately enough Happy New Year. The name of the calendar this year is Through the Year.

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Woo Hoo Who

The sounds you heard last night around 8:50 PM were the Doctor Who fans going nuts when we realized The Master was back. Of all the bad guys on Doctor Who the renegade Time Lord has to be among our favorites.

Last night's show was absolutely fun from start to finish. To start with we got Captain Jack and watching his very prickly relationship with the Doctor was so much fun. Every time Jack did his seductive hello routine to anyone the Doctor would tell him to cut it out. This Who fan was giggling the whole time. The inter-play between John Barrowman and David Tennant who play Jack and the Doctor is great. I cracked up when Jack said that this incarnation of the Doctor is cheeky. Oh yeah why do you think we love him so much?

We have two more episodes in this arc and boy are we Who fans looking forward to them. The Master is back!

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Nice to Hear

My boss rarely gives compliments. She can be difficult to work with especially if you are prone to be lazy and want to goof off instead of work. She expects people to do a proper day's work for their pay. What a concept.

Yesterday I showed her the letter from the Attorney General's Office so that we could get the charge off of my account. She didn't really say much at the time. That afternoon when I was putting the cash posting total on her board I mentioned that my partner and I were all finished with the posting including the zero pays. I told her in a kidding manner that we were feeling a bit smug with ourselves. She replied "I am proud of you too." It was meant for me and it acknowledged several things. It acknowledged the courage in fighting an unfair charge. It acknowledged the fact that she knew I was working while being in an extreme amount of pain. And it acknowledged that she realized I was doing a good job with the posting and that she realized the mistakes were not mine as the "new girl" but the others who were supposed to be experienced.

It really made me feel good to get the compliment. Words of praise can really make someone's day. The picture is called Celestial Dance 2.

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Sometimes

"Ideals are very important in one's life. Without ideals you cannot move - whether you achieve them or not is immaterial. But one must try and approximate them." Dalai Lama

Sometimes you just have to take risks. If you know something is not right then you have to speak up even if you have to take a big risk to do so.

When the hospital where I worked refused to listen when I told them I had not been examined in their emergency room and that the charges were wrong they ignored me. They privately said I was right but they refused to drop the $60.00 copay. Now I can certainly afford the $60.00 but the principle of thing was that the charges were, in my view, fraudulent. I ended up filing complaints with the Better Business Bureau and the State Attorney General's Office. I got a response today and they are crediting the $60.00. If they had acted when I first asked them I would never have had to file the suits. I could not in good conscience pay them when they did nothing.

It was a very risky thing to do suing one's own employers but I was not going to compromise my principles and pay for something that did not occur. If I had paid it would have said that I condone what happened. In the end I won because they really could not prove I had been treated.

Courage is a scary thing sometimes. The picture is called Guardian of Courage.

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Sunday Thoughts

"A wound caused by fire will eventually heal; but a wound caused by the tongue leaves a scar that never heals." Valluvar

What an incredible quote! It is so very true isn't it? I think we all can think of words that were said in our hearing that still hurt years later.

My mother talked to our surgeon on Friday night when she was at work. I had hoped they could do all the surgery at once but they will have to repair the hiatal hernia separately. That means I will need to under go two major surgeries within a couple week span. I'm not looking forward to this at all but if it stops the pain then I'll do it.

Doctor Who was down and outright spooky on Friday. I think it was really creepy of them to show the pictures of all the statues at the end of the show considering that the monsters looked like angel statues. I think I may be keeping a wary eye on statues from now on. I missed Torchwood yesterday because I wasn't feeling good and went to bed early. However I can get my fill of Captain Jack over the next three episodes of Doctor Who. He is the only interesting character on Torchwood as far as I'm concerned.

Some of my favorite shows are coming back soon. Heroes and  Stargate Atlantis will both be having new episodes in a couple of weeks. It should be an interesting season ahead of us.

I got the teddy bear from my brother's Cafe Press spot. You know something bear I would rather be blogging too.

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This and That

"Sincerity is a transparent diamond through which the light of God shines in our lives." Paramananda

I've been struggling through these last few days. The pain has been pretty intense and I'm spending a lot of time in bed as a result. My Mom and brother insisted that I see a different doctor and as a result it will be October 3rd before I can get in. Everyone at work has been very concerned and people who normally have been rather rude are now being very nice. I appreciate their concern. I just wish everything was over with.

I spent Saturday in front of the television. They had a couple of episodes of Doctor Who that I had seen before but they were still fun to watch. Doctor Who is one of those shows I can watch over and over again. I saw the first episode of Torchwood and so far the jury is out on that one. I wasn't enamored by the female policeman. I thought she was really rather dumb at times. I like the character of Captain Jack. It will be interesting to see how this one takes off. It is darker then Doctor Who and more adult but I'm not convinced that the creators of the show really have that good of a handle. Adult shouldn't just mean more sexual innuendo. There are themes that would be better drama to explore. I'll give it a chance.

Not much else is going on in my life. Mom is treating me like a fragile doll which is a bit irritating but she means well. I'm not one for being babied a lot. I like to be up and about and doing things. Of course I do know I need to pace myself since I tire so easily and if I move around too much I start hurting bad.

I'm hoping to do some more art work this weekend. I have a couple of vague ideas floating around in my head that I would like to work on. With a little luck they will gel this weekend and I'll have some more pictures to share.

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We Have An Answer

"Genuine compassion involves analyzing the situation regardless of whether the person is close or not." Dalai Lama

I ran into my Doctor in the hallway yesterday and he saw the CAT scan results. He didn't have much time to talk but said I have massive fibroid tumors that appear to be benign but I need an hysterectomy as soon as possible. It will be at least a month before I can get anything scheduled. I can't even get an appointment for an evaluation until after the 20th. I don't know how much work I will miss or the recovery time yet. To say I'm scared is an understatement.

I'll try to write here as often as I can on different things. It will help keep my mind off the pain. You can expect a major geek posting after the Doctor Who weekend coming up. We finally get to see Torchwood. ;-)

I did this picture when I came home last night. I wanted something soothing for my shattered nerves. It is called Water Lily.

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Short Update

They finally did the CAT scan yesterday. We should have the results in a couple of days and see what is going on down in the bladder. Still struggling through work and sleeping as much as possible. Feeling a touch better and may try to post a little more often.

The TV/VCR/DVD combo got set up properly yesterday so I can at least watch some of my favorite movies and things while resting.

Geek alert! The second part of Doctor Who is tomorrow and then those who have BBC America can catch a different episode Saturday followed by the premier of Torchwood followed by an interview with Doctor Who star David Tennant.

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